February 2024

 
 

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On Sunday, February 25 2024 Aaron Bushnell , a 25-year-old serviceman of the United States Air Force, set himself on fire outside the front gate of the Embassy of Israel in Washington, D.C.

“My name is Aaron Bushnell, I am an active duty member of the US airforce, and I will no longer be complicit in genocide. I’m about to engage in an extreme act of protest, but compared to what people have been experiencing in Palestine at the hands of their colonizers, it’s not extreme at all. This is what our ruling class has decided will be normal.”

“Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13

Well done Aaron, thou good and faithful servant—may the angels carry you home.

This month JD covers the song “Jerusalem” by singer/songwriter Steve Earle. Following the song the artist shares his thoughts on our support of the Palestinian people at this time of crisis.


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January 2024

 
 

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We set goals each year. What or who influences the setting of these goals? If we accomplish our goals, what do we hope will occur in our life? Is there a general tendency in the types of goals we set? This month, the artist considers his own goals in light of a trip he recently took—and a particular reflection he had while on this adventure. Perhaps his personal reflections will prod you to consider the nature of your own goals, dreams and ambitions.


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DECEMBER 2023

 
 

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December marks the completion of 3 years, for 5Doors magazine/gallery.  Thank you for the messages you sent to let us know that what you encountered here was meaningful to you. Also, your contributions through the purchase of art and your donations have made this effort, possible. May your winter solstice find you blessed in the most essential ways. And may we all make 2024 a year of focused creativity and deliberate empathy. 

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“The Womxn With Exceptional Ears,” a short story by JD Rudometkin, was recently published in Luna Arcana Magazine.

Below is a conversation between Luna Arcana’s Editor/Creative Director, Rohini Walker and JD, in which themes and images from the short story are discussed.

Still image of Rohini Walker and JD Rudometkin taken from their conversation. Video Conversation below. 

Luna Arcana is an Arts & Literary print journal  from Joshua Tree, California: a homage to the deserts of the south-west, and to the hidden power and thriving life present in these arid terrains.

Luna Arcana documents stories of the desert in the form of words, illustrations and photographs, as well as features on members of the vibrant creative community who naturally gravitate to this landscape. Luna Arcana is an exploration of the unseen, occult forces that govern all life, and that the landscape of the desert draws out of those who gravitate here. Another key focus of Luna Arcana is the deep sense of humility the desert instills in the people who have chosen to call the it home, a humility made tangible by the conservation and permaculture work being done here, in particular within the community of Joshua Tree and its environs.

If you would like to purchase the a copy of this issue of the magazine, please visit Luna Arcana

To find out more about Rohini's work, visit https://www.rohiniwalker.com/


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NOVEMBER 2023

 
 

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OCTOBER 2023

 
 

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SEPTEMBER 2023

 
 

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This month’s release is a song called The Door. It can be procured via bandcamp by clicking on the “buy” link below.

The Door by Step Jayne
Written and Produced by JD Rudometkin

AI Image by Micheal Lopez

Lyrics

Well I took you down to hell
That place where you look at yourself
When there’s no where left to go yeah,
That’s what I came here for.

So come step down inside
Into the darker night
Cause you can’t run anymore
And that’s what you came here for.

How long you been walking that limp
Playing the wounded knee
And bleeding out into the the street
For everyone to see
Til you get sick of the trick
And drop down into the pit
Cause that’s what the death crawl wants
In the mirror and nothing more
With you lying down there on the floor
With you dying down there
And right over there is the door
And that’s what you came here for.

Look at you look at you.

And you are the one I adore
That voice in a desert town
That delivered your mind to your mouth
When I heard you calling out to me
And when I found you beside the pool
My heart sank into you.
There was nothing I could do.
There was nothing I would not do.

So I tried to ease your mind
And I wanted to hold your hand
But the gods had other plans
And tho I long more
I am the man at the door
With a light and a broken key
Willing to watch you scream
Down here where the hunger feeds
As I fall you fall to your knees
And bleed
Upon the looking glass

Look at you look at you

And you are the one I adore
That voice in a desert town
From your beautiful mind to your mouth
When I heard you calling out to me
Well I can pick you up
And I can help you stand
But I think you already know
That’s as far as I can go

(c) JD Rudometkin 2023


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AUGUST 2023

 
 

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THE ART OF SELLING A HOME: 12 POINTS OF INTEREST

For 10+ weeks this summer I had 1 goal: Sell my house. This goal was accomplished at the last possible moment. I learned many lessons in the process that I will share with you here. Perhaps you can apply portions of what I learned to your next project or other aspects of your life. 

1. VISION + MAGIC
First of all, you have to know what you want. Then, magic happens. Coincidental angels come to assist you. Difficult pieces suddenly fit and unexpected gifts fall into your lap. I could tell you a dozen stories about how various elements came together during this project. Things just kept happening to make it all work out. But before the magic appears, you have to take the first step. 

There is an allegory in a holy book where the people had to cross a deep river in order to reach their dreamland on the other side. And god said, “Step into the water.” So, with shaking knees the priests stepped into the river and suddenly the waters parted. The people walked into the promised land on dry ground. There’s something about taking the first step that signals the unseen forces that you are actually down to make it happen. These forces may simply be your subconscious mind or it may be a collective hive mind. Or it could be a divine source. It doesn’t really matter what you call it. 

2. SEEK COUNCIL + ADAPT IT TO YOUR WAY OF WORKING
After you have a clear vision, then seek counsel from people you trust who have experience. The first godsend was my friend Clarence who got me thinking clearly. I was complaining about taking time away from art to do the house sell project and he said, “Its only for a short amount of time, and it’s an investment you have spent time with for years.” What he said made so much sense. And yet it felt a bit sterile. And so I decided to make the whole project an art form. I decided to imbue the art spirit in each aspect of preparing the house to hit the market. From the color of the exterior paint chosen to the interior staging of each room. And because I approached it as an art project, my will could bend into it. At that point, the vision had the essential ingredient it needed: A Focused Commitment Infused With Desire. 

So, you see, advice helps but you have to put your personal stamp on it so that it moves your soul to act. Otherwise a logical endeavor will feel cold and detached. And, as part of this process, it’s good to know that your ideas are as relevant as those with more experience. In fact, sometimes people with experience fail because their minds are frozen in common laws. So, it’s a challenge to know when to take advice and when to follow your own knowledge and intuition. And you will constantly be asking, “How can I meld this all together in a way that works?” At this point, it's easy to become overwhelmed. But, if you look at it like a puzzle you get to solve, it becomes a lot more fun. And if something fails, oh well. Remember: Regret is a waste of time. Especially when you don’t have a lot of time.

3. CREATE A CLEAR PLAN
After I was committed, I mapped out a 2 page plan with a list of 35-40 tasks that needed to be completed. My friends Gary and Dael who are multi-faceted jacks of all trades agreed to complete the list with me, and so we were all assigned specific tasks. That first week in June, we started in. 

Many times during the prep work, I felt overwhelmed. Things would get foggy and unpredictable. At those times, I would sometimes go back and look at the list late at night and feel OK because there was still a basic plan with a definitive overall goal.  We did, however, have to adapt the plan almost every single day. And that’s what you have to do to make things work. 

4. PIVOT
So many unexpected obstacles appeared. For example, Gary and Dael were not always available. Gary’s mom is off her rocker and Dael’s mom had a rager fit because of an acute pain she was experiencing while in the care home. Then Dael’s van broke down. And beside the mom problems, they both have other jobs. So I had to pivot. I called my nephews. They are 6 foot 6 and 6 foot 7. And these giants came to help paint the chimney and power wash the floor and a bunch of other things. Two giant people on their hands and knees scrubbing the ground for buyers who will never know how hard we all worked to get this home ready for them. But I knew potential buyers would feel the love in the corner where the floor was scrubbed. And the subconscious corner of their mind’s eye would see that there is not one fucking cobweb in any eave. And that’s why they would buy the place at full price. Which they did.

5. TAKE CARE OF THE WORKERS
For many years during various projects I led, the work was more important than the workers. This kind of thinking takes the wind out of everyone’s sails.  At the end of the day, when you take your shower alone and wash off the dirt, it’s the relationships that bring meaning. So, you find little things that people love, and you get those things for them. Gary liked blue gatorade, so it was always in the fridge. Dael liked hugs. I tried to hug Dael everyday before he left. These guys are angels. And they know how to lighten the mood with jokes and strange stories. If it’s always a serious goal, it becomes a real drag and nobody wants to come back to work. You gotta have as much fun as possible in hell. 

And part of what everybody wants is to be heard. To have creative input. People love to come up with new ideas or tried and true ways of doing things to solve problems. When I was a band leader I often made the mistake of stopping a creative groove because what the bandmates were doing fell outside the scope of my vision. I hope I learned my lesson from those band rehearsal days and am now able to let everyones ideas elevate the work. 

6. OPEN + HUMBLE 
One day my mother came to look around and offer her thoughts. Now, I call myself an artist and I feel I have an aesthetic that works for me. But during the staging part of the process I had become blind to the design in the home. My mom offered advice on the placement of a large sectional couch and a large dining room table for staging. I almost resisted her ideas. But luckily we gave them a try and it was the best possible solution for both rooms. It changed the entire look and feel of the home, bringing warmth, cohesion and better spacing. 

Just about everyone who came to work on the project had an idea about how to do various tasks. And it felt good to allow them to share their ideas and see them light up when a new design concept or work solution entered their mind. The spirit of collaboration has the chance of elevating a project because you have more minds at work.

And as I look back now, I realize one of the most enjoyable parts of this project was the people I got to work with. For example, I was able to get to know my nephews better. If you want to connect with someone, work on a project together. Share a common goal. I’ll never forget when my nephew Max figured out how he and his brother Nick could use the shop vacuum to suck up the water when they used the power washer on the cement floor inside the annex studio room. We no longer had to scrub that floor on our hands and knees. We all got excited about that. 

7. HOW TO BE FREE IN HELL
I have to admit, I was a nervous wreck most of the time during this whole process. And that’s because I like order and knowing what will happen. And most of the 10+ weeks felt like bloody chaos and constant pivoting. And at some point I began wondering if I somehow actually liked the challenge of bringing order to the chaos. But it just about broke me several times. And here’s what I would have done differently in order to have more fun.

Organize staging areas and ask all the workers to clean up every day before they leave. Gary did this the first day. But after that it was 8 weeks of shit everywhere until I finally cleaned up the entire place and designated staging areas. That was a massive relief. Not everyone has the same idea of what clean means. And often inexperienced workers do not know how to organize and clean up. You have to show them. And its worth your time and energy to demonstrate how to do this. If you like chaos and drama, don’t worry, there will still be plenty of that everyday as you are trying to figure things out. But at least you won’t spend 10 minutes each day looking for the fucking hammer or nearly face plant into the blade of a randomly placed table saw. 

9. MAINTAIN A LEAST ONE CLEAN, ORGANIZED SPACE
Also, I had to sleep and eat in the home while all this was happening. And at one point I lost my shit because there was not one single place in the house that was not a complete mess. Some people can live this way. I cannot. Eventually I figured out that if I can at least keep the kitchen and a sleeping area clean, they won’t take me to the asylum. So, I did that. And as far as I can tell, sanity remains. 

In a world of chaos, creating a small space where order exists can save your life.

10. SILENT 10
All of these things kept me sane, but barely. I must admit that the one thing I did not master was a relentless anxiety that seemed to always be riding below the surface. It nested in my chest. I could feel it like a giant squid wrapping itself around my heart. And during this project I never did consistently figure out how to release that tension. Part of me believes it was needed to drive the project forward. And for that I am thankful. The property closed on a Friday and I had to be at work 500 miles away the following Monday. Somehow it all worked out. But if I ever commit my will to a project like this again, I want to be sure to figure out how to stay calm internally despite looming deadlines and perpetual uncertainty. Again, I humbly admit, I did not quite get that one completely figured out. However, I did do a few things that allowed me to feel more comfortable in the process. And I think these are worth sharing. 

In addition to becoming more organized and creating clean spaces, I spent time with friends and family and rode my bike beside the river every night. That brought balance. Fun is often underrated.

Another thing I did was develop a new strategy for beginning the day. I called it “Silent 10.” What I did was write out a general idea about what I wanted to focus on. In this case the first one was usually “Sell the home.” I would then set the timer for 10 minutes. During this timed “meditation” session I would allow the idea to marinate. And as I pondered specific tasks for the day, solutions would emerge from the silence. It felt like a graceful way to problem solve. I think this time of quiet reflection allowed us all to save a lot of time and energy.  

11. LET GO OF SHIT YOU DON’T NEED
I must have taken 10-15 large boxes of stuff to the curb to give to whomever wanted it in the neighborhood—from fairly decent kitchenware to finely crafted furniture. Human vultures and opportunists descended on the curb stack and cleared the pile everyday. It was amusing to participate in the experiment. Some of the items had an emotional pull and were difficult to release. But I doubt I will miss a single thing. In fact, when I finally did have the house completely clean and ready to show, it was in a state of minimalist design. And it felt freeing. It informed me about how I really want to live in my new home.

12. GIVE THANKS
One task that was a massive undertaking was moving a 30 foot vintage aluminum trailer that had the tongue facing the house. Before hauling the trailer away, we had to get it out of the side yard. I needed a specialized dolly to move the RV. It was amazing that I finally found a person with one of these specialized dollies who actually let me rent it from him. Once Gary, my dear friend Andrew and I were able to get the beast to the street, it was ready for pick up. A couple days later my generous older brother Ron brought his friend with a massive Ford F250 to tug it to a temporary landing place. I will never forget seeing that massive silver beast being pulled away and feeling so thankful to everyone who made it happen. When people do kind things for you like that, you never forget.

The day before I left, my 17 year old nephew and I loaded up my truck. Then I had to unload and repack it with my 84 year old mom helping out. Jeez. I know. And as I headed south on California 99 on Saturday morning I felt an enormous sense of relief and gratitude. I began going through a list of all the people that helped me. And I said their names out loud and thanked them all as hit the 99 out of tow. From workers to real estate agents to friends that offered good advice and friendship and I gave thanks to the trees and rivers that brought me back to life so many times during this summer art project. The gratitude list was longer than I expected. And this accounting of contributors allowed me to realize that there are so many things in life that we cannot do alone. We all need help along the way. And it’s usually more fun to work together anyway. 


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July 2023

 
 

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JD vs. ChatGPT (6 prompts)

The following is a thought experiment using 6 writing prompts generated by the artist with with the intent of exploring human and AI processing. It immediately became clear that the nature of the response was based on the quality of the prompt. So, prompts were amended for ChatGPT (An artificial intelligence processor) in order to create a response that was either in keeping with JD’s response or in an attempt to generate a more interesting or more pleasing style. Moving further into the experiment, the first thought was that ChatGPT is essentially a collective human response, based on all information that his been uploaded to the web. After further consideration it seemed that AI was also going beyond human intervention. It feels as though we are entering a phase of what quantum theorists and artists have considered for some time, “The true nature of reality is up for grabs.” The fabric of our identity as a species in society is at the beginning stages of another major shift. For example, educators are now grading papers written by students who are using AI. While there are ways to track plagiarism with other AI bots, sooner or later the entire system of education will be forced to adapt to a new way of processing information. In some ways it feels as if all the years of work developing critical thinking skills, non-critical presence practices, and a writing and art repertoire is suddenly being washed downstream. Listen to the song, “Everything Is Free Now” by Gillian Welch. The flavor of that song seems to encapsulate an essence of the current shift in human evolution.

ChatGPT seems to tend toward certain trends in writing. But that may also be due to the nature of the artist’s prompts. If you have thoughts or ideas about this experiment, please share. Questions are also welcome.

1. Prompt for JD: “The Nature of Forgiveness”

JD’s response: 

The nature of forgiveness is the nature of the forgiver. The totality of the capacity of that person to employ wisdom, discretion, fortitude and indifference in the act of pardon.

It is foolish to hold onto old wounds once we have learned from them. And it is insane to remain in a situation where forgiveness must occur for the same offense, repeatedly. And, of course, it is rather easy to let love win once or twice; it is quite another thing to continue to pardon day after day until the wound is healed by sheer desire and the resilience of grace. In other words, employing the will to forgive within oneself, until there is no need to forgive again. 

Finally, there is a necessary detachment that eases the forgiver in the path of letting go. It is the ability—a learned tool—of stepping outside oneself to become the observer of the action. It is important to consider that this is a learned skill and is not to be confused with avoidance.

At some point in our lives we are given the opportunity to forgive. To let go of our idea of being the oppressed and to step into a new way of knowing, whereby all relations are imbued with kindness. This kindness is enhanced by building a complete awareness of ones own well being and the well being of another. 

1. Prompt for Chat GPT3.5: “Use your creativity to write an essay on the nature of forgiveness’

Chat GPT3.5's Response:

Title: The Transformative Power of Forgiveness

Introduction:

In the tapestry of human relationships, conflicts and transgressions often leave scars, sowing seeds of resentment and bitterness. Yet, amidst the complex web of emotions, forgiveness emerges as a beacon of hope, illuminating the path to healing, reconciliation, and personal growth. The nature of forgiveness is both profound and intricate, embodying a remarkable capacity to transcend pain, liberate the spirit, and foster empathy. As we embark on this exploration, let us delve into the depths of forgiveness and unlock its transformative power.

Body:

  • The Essence of Forgiveness:

  • At its core, forgiveness is a conscious act of releasing resentment, anger, and the desire for revenge towards someone who has caused harm. It is an inherent human quality that transcends the boundaries of culture, religion, and time. By embracing forgiveness, individuals free themselves from the emotional burden that weighs them down, offering solace to their wounded souls. Forgiveness is not an act of weakness but a testament to inner strength and resilience, as it requires the courage to confront pain, let go, and choose compassion over bitterness.

  • The Healing Journey:

  • Forgiveness is a transformative journey, both for the forgiver and the forgiven. It holds the power to mend fractured relationships, rekindle trust, and foster emotional well-being. When one extends forgiveness, it opens the door to genuine reconciliation, creating space for dialogue and understanding. By acknowledging the shared humanity in all individuals, forgiveness promotes empathy and compassion, knitting the fragmented threads of society back together.

  • Self-Liberation:

  • In forgiving others, individuals embark on a voyage of self-discovery and liberation. Forgiveness allows them to break free from the chains of victimhood, reclaim their personal power, and redefine their narrative. By relinquishing resentment, they rid themselves of the emotional shackles that hold them captive, enabling them to transcend the past and embrace a future unburdened by grudges. In forgiving, one learns to let go of the past, embracing the present with a renewed sense of joy, peace, and possibility.

  • The Complexity of Forgiveness:

  • Forgiveness, however, is not a simplistic or linear process. It does not condone or erase the wrongdoing, nor does it require the immediate restoration of trust. Instead, it acknowledges the pain, seeks understanding, and paves the way for healing. It necessitates reflection, introspection, and the willingness to confront uncomfortable emotions. Forgiveness is a journey that unfolds at its own pace, varying from person to person and situation to situation. It requires profound inner work, often entailing empathy, acceptance, and a deep understanding of human fallibility.

  • The Ripple Effect:

  • Forgiveness possesses the extraordinary capacity to extend beyond the individual, reverberating through families, communities, and even societies. The act of forgiveness inspires others, igniting a ripple effect that has the potential to transform collective consciousness. When forgiveness becomes a cultural norm, it engenders an atmosphere of compassion, understanding, and harmony, allowing communities to heal and thrive.

Conclusion:

In the tapestry of life, forgiveness stands as a testament to our shared humanity and the indomitable spirit of resilience. It carries the power to heal wounds, restore relationships, and elevate the human experience. By embracing forgiveness, we unlock our own capacity for growth, liberation, and empathy, transcending the pain that binds us. Let us strive to cultivate forgiveness within ourselves and extend it to others, for in doing so, we shape a future woven with compassion, reconciliation, and collective healing.

2. Prompt for JD: “The Pain and Pleasure of Transcendence.”

JD’s response:

It takes years to realize you are already there. The pain of transcendence is in the assumption that being the greatest will heal all suffering.

The question becomes: “Why strive?”

If the suffering is always present, why not end it all now? Why do we keep going? What is driving us to become something else?

Some of the most clear headed moments seem to occur as a by-product of a paradoxical loose grip on a faithful intent. 

And here we are.

And there are countless books and systems and teachers who will show you the door over the plodding decades of your life. 

And after all that glorious discipline and failure, one day you will walk right into that other room and it will smell familiar. It will feel that you have been here already—many years ago as a child, before you could speak—staring up into the bluest sky. 

2. Prompt for ChatGPT3.5: “Write a short, creative essay on the pain and pleasure of transcendence.”

ChatGPT’s response:

Transcendence: The Pain and Pleasure of Liberation

There exists a profound and paradoxical duality within the realm of transcendence—a delicate interplay between pain and pleasure, liberation and confinement. It is a journey of profound significance, leading one beyond the boundaries of the ordinary and into the vast expanses of the extraordinary.

At first glance, the pursuit of transcendence may appear as a serene ascent to elevated states of being, promising liberation from the shackles of the mundane. Yet, upon closer inspection, one discovers that the path to transcendence is not without its share of hardships.

The pain of transcendence is rooted in the arduous process of shedding familiar skins—the layers of conditioning, beliefs, and attachments that confine us to the limited realm of the known. It demands that we confront our deepest fears, question our cherished certainties, and venture into uncharted territories of the self. Like a metamorphosing caterpillar, we must surrender to the discomfort of transformation, allowing the familiar to dissolve in order to make way for the extraordinary.

As the cocoon of familiarity unravels, the pain of separation becomes palpable. We may find ourselves drifting away from the comforting embrace of societal norms and expectations, alienating those who once shared our journey. The road to transcendence can be lonely and isolating, as we transcend the limitations of our previous selves and seek connection with like-minded souls who share our aspirations for growth and expansion.

And yet, amidst the pain, there is an undercurrent of pleasure—a joyous anticipation of the liberation that lies ahead. As we shed the weight of the known, a newfound lightness fills our being, and we catch glimpses of the boundless potentials awaiting our exploration. The pain begins to dissolve into a profound sense of freedom—an exhilarating dance with the infinite.

In moments of transcendence, we witness the beauty of existence with heightened clarity. The mundane becomes extraordinary, the ordinary becomes extraordinary. We drink from the wellspring of inspiration, and our senses are awakened to the subtle nuances of life's symphony. Every breath carries the fragrance of possibility, and every step is a dance of liberation.

But even within this ecstasy, there lies a curious pain—a pain of expansion. As our consciousness expands, so does our awareness of the vastness that lies beyond. We realize that transcendence is an infinite journey, a ceaseless quest for new horizons, forever eluding our grasp. We become acutely aware of the limitations of our finite existence, forever yearning for greater understanding and deeper connection.

The pain and pleasure of transcendence are intertwined, two sides of the same coin. To seek the extraordinary is to accept the challenge of confronting our limitations and embracing the discomfort of growth. It is to recognize that liberation and confinement coexist, that pain and pleasure dance in an eternal tango.

And so, we embark on this journey, willingly surrendering to the pain and pleasure that accompany transcendence. For it is through this paradoxical interplay that we discover the true essence of our being—a boundless spirit capable of soaring to heights unimaginable. In the pain, we find strength. In the pleasure, we find meaning. And in the transcendence of self, we find our place in the cosmic tapestry of existence.

3. Prompt for JD: “Why it hurts to evolve and stay the same.”

JD’s response:

Cocoon

3. Prompt for ChatGPT4: “Write a one word answer for the statement “Why it hurts to evolve and stay the same.”’

ChatGPT4’s response:

Growth. 

4. Prompt for JD: “Points of contact in the battle to avoid intimacy.”

JD’s response:

If you had been walking in Central Park late at night and were suddenly stabbed in the back of the head and lost the most precious part of your memory—say, the way your mother used to push the hair back gently behind your tender ear as a child and you could no longer recall that moment but were left with a vague sadness and a scar—would you not avoid parks at night? Parks in Madison Wisconsin and Chico California. Even parks out on the gentle slopes of County Cork. 

“Why won’t Joan ever picnic with us?” your friends wonder. “She shows up for bowling and comes to the book club on Wednesdays.” They don’t understand and you can’t explain it to them because you don’t know yourself. But every time they invite you to a sunset picnic in the park, you sprain your ankle or get food poisoning or you might have a distant relative suddenly come through town. 

There is a place in you that has guard dogs beyond repair. It’s a shadow cavity. And without light there, in the darkest corner of that room sits a child. The child does not know its name and so rubs that spot on its head wherein lies the wound who knows better. 

And because it knows better, it keeps bringing you back to this point of contact that will allow you to feel loved again. And it will do this thousands of times before you die. 

4. Prompt for ChatGPT4: “Write a 4 paragraph essay as Joan Didion titled, “Points of contact in the battle to avoid intimacy.”’

The struggle to evade intimacy, as much as it is a voyage of self-insulation, also represents a profoundly human form of confrontation. It is a battle that does not brandish the traditional weapons of war, but is fought in the corners of dinner table conversations and silent moments on long car rides. It is fought in points of contact; in the thin veneer of communication that underlines our need for belonging, and yet, makes us squirm in discomfort. The effort to keep someone at an arm's length while not severing the ties of human connection is an art, and in this canvas of artistry, one may find a mirroring of their fears, their insecurities, their desires.

It is the fight that we wage within ourselves, first and foremost. We project the world in the likeness of our psyche, and thus, any battle against intimacy is rooted within us. If the world seems too intrusive, we must question whether it is the world that invades us, or we, who fear to step outside of our fortresses. Thus, the struggle against intimacy becomes a reflection of our own internal conflicts. Our points of contact with the outside world become our points of friction, yet also points of potential growth. They map the landscape of our internal turmoil, forming a topography of our fears and our deep-seated need for self-preservation.

We devise strategies to maintain the fortress; we perform, we conceal, and we masquerade. The quiet "I'm fine" when we are not, the rehearsed smiles, and the orchestrated small talks – all contrivances of a person in constant conflict with intimacy. Yet, paradoxically, it is through these points of contact that we make our most human connections. Each conversation is a possibility, an opportunity for us to either expand our horizons or to further retreat into our self-made fortresses.

Hence, it is essential to embrace these points of contact, not as battlefronts, but as gateways to self-discovery and human connection. The act of distancing ourselves is not just an avoidance of others, but a circumvention of our own selves. By understanding our fears and learning to address them, we can make peace with intimacy and perhaps, even find comfort in it. After all, intimacy, like every other human experience, is not a battle to be won or lost, but a journey to be undertaken. It is through this journey that we ultimately find our points of contact, not just with the world, but with our own selves.

5. Prompt for JD: “Why is it always so beautiful over there.”

JD’s response:

When she designed her home, she also designed the landscape. She was a landscape Archetict. So, in order to live up to her vocation, she created an elaborate scheme that included such things as an elevated cistern that fed a pool of coi and had lounge chairs built into the earth that cantilevered out over a lake of fire which all of her neighbors appreciated more than she. 

From high above the fire, on starless nights she would peer over at Horuko Mirakami’s dwelling, which was established without a blade of grass or an ounce of water. Haruko simply had a zen sand garden surrounding her home, bordered by a 4 inch curb of concrete. 

The landscape architect would watch Haruko comb the sand on quiet mornings just before sunrise. And the architect would imagine that after the raking, her neighbor would retreat into her simple abode for tea, and perhaps a moment of quiet contemplation. 

They lived in front of one another for 10 years but seldom spoke. When they did speak, neither of them mentioned the landscape. They both seemed to avoid the subject at all cost. 

5. Prompt for ChatGPT4 “Write a short 4 paragraph story by Virginia Woolf and Haruki Murakami titled, ‘“Why Is It Always So Beautiful Over There?”’

She had only to close her eyes and listen. The familiar rhythmic thrum of the vinyl spinning on the record player, coupled with the delicate pattering of rain against the window, washed over her in soothing waves. Lottie, seated comfortably in the warmth of her modest London apartment, didn't need to see the world outside to know that it was grey and gloomy. "Why is it always so beautiful over there?" she mused aloud, peering at the postcard of Japan she held, showing the vibrant pink cherry blossoms in full bloom.

Meanwhile, halfway across the globe, a man named Takashi gazed out his small window in Tokyo, staring at the cherry blossom tree in his garden, the pale petals fluttering down in the soft breeze. But the beauty of the season felt melancholic, just a brief interlude before the inevitable decay. He picked up a worn-out copy of Mrs. Dalloway, which he had found in a second-hand bookstore. "Why is it always so beautiful over there?" he whispered, flipping to a dog-eared page describing a sunny day in London.

Time and space stretched out between Lottie and Takashi, a fabric of unmet possibilities. As she slid the postcard back between the pages of her Murakami novel, Lottie could almost smell the sakura flowers, feel the tranquillity that the eastern philosophy inspired. Likewise, immersed in the intricacies of Woolf's prose, Takashi imagined the crunch of autumn leaves underfoot, the infectious laughter and energy of a bustling English pub.

"Why is it always so beautiful over there?" It was a longing for the unfamiliar, a yearning for what's beyond reach. The allure of the unknown masked the charm of the known. They didn't realize that the beauty they sought was not in the places they longed for, but in the way those places lived within them, shaped their thoughts, inspired dreams, and colored their solitude. As the rain on the window pane slowed, Lottie turned up the record player. As the petals fell, Takashi turned a page.

6. Prompt for JD: “The art and science of knowing the essential truth in every encounter—within oneself and therefore with others.

JD’s Response:

The answer is rhetorical, based on one’s definition of truth.

Novak Djokovic knows how to channel his mind and work the court while maintaining complete composure better than any tennis player. He looks for the weaknesses in his own game when his coaches and other members of his team see no weakness. And he uses this method of critical analysis to break down the opposition. He is a master at making his opponent uncomfortable. We assume that truth, in this regard, is conquering. 

But what about Leo Tolstoy? He asked us, “How much land does a man need?”

And where does Virginia Woolf fit into this idea of truth? She walked into the river with rocks in her pockets. She might wonder if Oprah Winfrey has rocks in her head. 

These are big names that have nothing to do with your neighbor who helps you mend the fence because you may have no skill set in household repair. He’s a kind person. Your neighbor. Perhaps he’s having an affair with his step-daughter and does not dare believe in an afterlife. At least not one that carries retribution. The two of you know how to toe the line in your own way. And how about you? How do you know if your fantasies are true?

Lest your wealth of mind or wealth of spirit become the lie, lie low in honor of the spinning web of self-mastery, because the gods have many names. 

6. Prompt for ChatGPT4: “The art and science of knowing the essential truth in every encounter—within oneself and therefore with others.”

Your statement appears to touch on several concepts related to philosophy, psychology, and interpersonal communication. Here's a broader interpretation:

  • Art: This term suggests a level of creativity, intuition, and personal expression. In the context of your statement, it might refer to the ability to empathetically interpret and understand subjective experiences, or to communicate and interact with others in a nuanced, emotionally intelligent way. Art is also often associated with the cultivation of beauty, harmony, and balance, which could relate to maintaining these qualities in one's internal state and interactions with others.

  • Science: This refers to systematic knowledge obtained through observation, experimentation, and reasoning. In the context of your statement, it could involve the empirical study of oneself and others, potentially through psychological theories or neuroscience. This could encompass understanding how the mind works, how emotions are processed, or how beliefs and behaviors are formed and can be changed.

  • Knowing the essential truth: This could refer to understanding core realities or truths about oneself and others. It suggests a level of deep insight or wisdom that goes beyond superficial appearances or assumptions. In a personal context, this might involve self-awareness or self-understanding. In an interpersonal context, it might involve understanding others' motivations, emotions, or perspectives.

  • In every encounter: This suggests applying this knowledge in real time, in every interaction or experience. This could involve active listening, empathetic understanding, mindfulness, or presence. It might also involve taking each encounter as an opportunity for learning, growth, or connection.

  • Within oneself and therefore with others: This suggests that self-knowledge and self-understanding are the foundation for understanding and connecting with others. It reflects the idea that we can only truly understand and empathize with others to the extent that we understand and accept ourselves.

Putting it all together, your statement seems to reflect a holistic, integrated approach to self-understanding and interpersonal communication that combines both intuitive and empirical methods. This aligns with many concepts in philosophy, psychology, and spirituality, which emphasize the importance of self-knowledge, empathy, mindfulness, and emotional intelligence in understanding and interacting with others.


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